To Forgive

Ten times removed
I forget about where it all began
bastard son of a bastard son of
a wild eyed child of the sun
and right as rain, I'm not the same
but I feel the same, I feel nothing

Holding back the fool again
holding back the fool pretends
I forget to forget nothing is important
holding back the fool again

I sensed my loss
before I even learned to talk
and I remenber my birthdays
empty party afternoons won'tcome back

Holding back the fool again
holding back the fool pretends
I forget to forget nothing is important
holding back the fool again

I forget to forget me
I forget to forget you see
nothing is important to me
I knew my loss
before I even learned to speak
and all along, I knew it was wrong
but I played along, with my birthday song

Holding back the fool again
holding back the fool pretends
I forget to forget nothing is important
holding back the fool again


Smashing Pumpkins (Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness)

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Eu tinha esta música escrita numa porta do meu quarto. Hoje o sonho foi mais ou menos neste clima... uma festa de aniversário esvaziada... :)


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Update 5/11: Mais sonhos sobre meu aniversário: um buffet bem vazio, surpresa pra mim (e o pensamento de "ah, por isso tinha sonhado com o meu aniversário!"); e uma confusão de datas - tava crente que era 19 de janeiro, mas depois bati na testa e percebi que o dia era 19 de novembro.